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Welcome to
A 9-Month Initiation · March — December 2025
Portalhood For Women & Nonbinary Healers, Creatives & Leaders
You are not at the beginning.
You are at the threshold.
A 9-month somatic and energy healing container for the healer, creative, or leader who is ready to expand their nervous system's capacity, clear their channel for creative energy and intuition to flow through undistorted, and step fully into who they are becoming and what they are creating.
✦ Doors open February 17 · Opening Ceremony March 20 · Spring Equinox ✦
You have something forming inside you. It may not have a name yet, and it may not feel like a dream so much as a quiet pull, an unease with the life you've built, or a sense that the next version of you is waiting just on the other side of something you can't quite see. You've been trying to find your way there through programs, through practices, through sheer willpower, and something keeps getting in the way. Not your ambition. Not your capacity. Your channel.
You are shedding an old way of being, one that kept you functional, impressive, capable, and surviving, and you are mid-initiation into something truer, slower, more powerful, and far more alive. You are no longer who you were, but what you are becoming hasn't fully landed in your body yet.
This in-between has a name: Portalhood. It is the fertile void, the liminal space, the place where nothing looks finished, but everything is rearranging.
And that is why what you've tried before hasn't worked.
You've done the circles, the workshops, the programs, the aesthetic rituals that look like healing but lack potent medicine. They addressed symptoms, parts, and productivity without touching the deeper mechanism: your nervous system's capacity to hold what you are calling in, and the clarity of your channel to source energy, to the creative intelligence, the field, the universe, whatever name you give it.
When your nervous system is not calibrated to hold more, it doesn't matter how much you attempt to change or call in a new way of being. Imagine pouring into a chalice that is cracked. No matter how much goes in, it leaks out and the chalice remains just as empty as before. Part of the work inside Portalhood is to repair those cracks, much the way Kintsugi does, rendering the vessel stronger than it was, increasing its capacity to hold what is poured into it, so that where it pours next is by choice and not by accident.
"Heather's blend of energy work, somatic work, connection to source energy, and grounded thinking is powerful beyond description. Each session is different, yet every time she helps me access deeper insight and a truer sense of self. The results have been tangible: creative flow, physical healing, trauma integration, and a deepened trust in myself. You leave feeling clearer, more grounded, and more fully alive."
— Tricia C.
Resonance vs. Distortion
You don't lack discipline. You probably just have some distortion in your channel. Portalhood is the work of clearing it.
Resonance
- Feels alive rather than forced
- Clarity without strain
- Effort present, but not coercive
- Doesn't require self-betrayal
- Leaves you more resourced, not depleted
- Emerges when your body leads timing
Distortion
- Pushing through exhaustion
- Creating to be seen, chosen, or safe
- Urgency mistaken for truth
- Creating from competition or the need for external validation rather than genuine enjoyment
- Needing output to justify existence
- An intelligent adaptation, not a personal flaw
A tuning fork doesn't create the frequency. It reveals it by removing the interference. This is what clearing your channel does. The signal was always there. Portalhood is the work of removing what has been distorting it.
You might be standing here
You are highly capable, someone others rely on. You've built a career, a practice, or a life that looks solid, and you're exhausted. Slowing down feels risky. Rest brings up anxiety. Creativity feels distant, even though it matters deeply to you.
You are the one who holds everyone, emotionally, energetically, and practically. You are intuitive, nurturing, and powerful, and you rarely feel held in return. Care has been expected of you, praised in you, and extracted from you, often without reciprocity.
You walk in many worlds: third culture kid, multiracial, multicultural, child of immigrants, neurodivergent, queer. The group spaces you've been in have rarely accounted for the full complexity of your identity, who you are in history, in lineage, in body.
You know, quietly or clearly, that you are gifted, intuitive, perceptive, powerful. And you hide that part of yourself. Visibility has not always felt safe. Preparation and refinement have become a way of staying protected while you wait for the right moment.
Your soul is craving something that has not fully taken shape yet. You sense it more than you can name it, and the life you have built, as full as it may appear, does not quite hold it.
You are on the precipice of something that terrifies and exhilarates you at the same time: a project, a business, a child literal or metaphorical, a new way of living altogether. You are not ready to do it alone, and you are done pretending you are.
Do you recognize yourself here?
These are not diagnoses or identities. They are survival strategies, intelligent adaptations to conditions that weren't safe. Most people in Portalhood carry more than one.
The Flooded One
"I feel too much and process too much at once. I cannot finish what I started."
Your mind stays busy because thinking felt safer than sensing. Creativity comes in bursts, vivid, associative, full of possibility, but completing things is genuinely hard. You are brilliant and you feel behind, simultaneously, and no amount of discipline has been able to close that gap.
What you grow toward: creativity that becomes lived instead of imagined. One thread, followed all the way through.
The Achiever
"If I am useful, capable, and exceptional, I belong."
Love, approval, or safety were tied to performance. Productivity became identity. You are the one others depend on, and you are exhausted. Rest brings anxiety. Slowing down feels like disappearing. Burnout is followed not by recovery but by pushing harder.
What you grow toward: choosing effort rather than defaulting to it. Leadership that includes receiving support.
The Caretaker
"Care is my role. Others come first."
Being needed equaled belonging. You are the emotional anchor, empathic, steady, fiercely protective. You rarely ask for help. Resentment builds quietly because it cannot be expressed. You alternate between warmth and withdrawal, and neither feels quite like you.
What you grow toward: care that includes self. The emergence of the Empress.
The Heretical Hermit
"My depth is real, but visibility is dangerous."
Expression, power, or difference were punished or rejected. Safety came from staying unseen. You are privately masterful, devoted to truth, independent in thought, deeply perceptive. You refine your work in solitude and rarely share it. You long for community while avoiding exposure.
What you grow toward: expression that feels safe enough to sustain. Presence that does not require hiding.
The Devoted Descendant
"I carry more than just my own life."
Family history, migration, collective trauma, or survival created a deep sense of responsibility to what came before. You choose stability over aliveness. You hesitate to outgrow roles. Ease and personal desire can feel like betrayal.
What you grow toward: freedom that honors the past without being bound by it.
Heather Udomrat
Somatic Energy Healing Facilitator · Diwa Collaborative
I created Portalhood because I wish a program like this had existed for me, especially last year, when I left my office, closed my business, and started a new one all in the span of a few months. I was encouraged to take a leap of faith in myself. But none of the coaches I worked with were focused on making sure my nervous system was calibrated for and could actually hold what I was creating and calling in.
Desire and inspiration are exciting. They are also unsustainable if the ecosystem around you keeps you burnt out, disconnected from yourself and your community, and working against your own natural rhythms. This program was born from everything I have learned in my own healing and in 13 years of evolution as a practitioner.
I am a half-Thai, half-Caucasian American woman who grew up in Bangkok and came to San Francisco in 2005. I am bisexual and a survivor of sexual assault and domestic violence. I've known poverty and wealth. For much of my twenties, I ran from my pain by throwing myself into work, self-medicating, and trying to save everyone around me instead of facing my own wounds.
I am a recovering codependent who also navigates ADHD. I know what it is to armor yourself in competence and hyper-independence to stay safe. I know what it takes to come back to your body after it has been a dangerous place to live. And I know what it means to be truly held by work that doesn't rush you through your complexity.
I share this because the way I hold space is inseparable from where I have been. When you work with me, you are working with someone who continues to dance with life's cycles of death and rebirth again and again. You are working with someone who honors the complexity of your being.
13 years in practice. Advanced ThetaHealing Practitioner, Trauma-Informed Breathwork Facilitator, Somatic Mind-Body Coach, Reiki Level II, and Family Constellation Facilitator in Training.
Three trimesters. One initiation.
The container moves with the seasons and your natural cycles rather than against them. Each trimester has its own medicine.
Rooting, Clearing, Preparing the Ground
This trimester is about safety, clearing the path, and making energetic and physical space for what you are calling in. We begin by building relationship with the land you inhabit and the spirits who came before, not as a ritual performed, but as a real, living connection that allows your nervous system to start unwinding.
Emotion, Desire, and Creative Life Force
We move into the emotional body: grief, rage, pleasure, and creativity, and explore what it means to create from resonance rather than survival. We examine your relationship to money and abundance not as a financial exercise but as a living, dynamic relationship with a real energetic frequency.
Identity, Shadow Work, and Ancestral Resolution
We go deeper into the patterns that have shaped your identity, the stories you inherited, and the ancestral threads still running through your choices. We work with shadow not to fix it but to integrate it. We close with grief ritual and a celebration of how far you have come.
The container
The work draws on somatic and body-based practices, energy healing, ancestral work, and group breathwork, woven together rather than applied separately. It is constellation-like in nature: following the thread of what wants to unfold in you, noticing the patterns in how things are woven together, and resting when your body says not yet, even when your mind and everyone around you says go.
18 Group Sessions
Two 90-minute live sessions per month, recorded. Every session includes somatic and energy work. Sessions draw on Theta healing, guided visualization, breathwork, neural rewiring, movement, somatic art, oracle pulls, and journaling as needed and as the group calls for it. No two sessions are the same.
Peer Support on Telegram
A practitioner-held peer community between sessions. Not another group chat but a living container for integration and real relationship.
Recordings & Downloadable Resources
All sessions are recorded. You also receive guided meditation recordings and downloadable materials including slides and handouts to support your integration between sessions.
Rotating Buddy Groups
Intimate groups of two to three that shift each trimester, so you build real relationships across the whole container rather than staying in one corner of it.
Monthly Remote Reiki
Once per month Heather sends distance Reiki to all participants. No attendance required — it happens on your behalf and you receive personal notes on whatever came through.
Guest Facilitators
Human Design, cycle syncing, perimenopause and menopause guidance, and more. Specialists woven in where they serve the arc of the work.
Family Constellations (Bonus)
Offered in October and November as Heather completes her year-long certification in December. Real, embodied work at no additional cost, offered with full transparency.
Choose your level of support
Group Container
$2,500 pay in full
or $289/month (9 months) · Early Bird
$2,997 pay in full · $333/month after March 3rd
- 18 live group sessions (90 min), recorded
- Guest facilitators: Human Design, cycle syncing, menopause guidance + more
- Family Constellations sessions (bonus, Oct–Nov)
- Peer Telegram community
- Rotating buddy groups (trimesters)
- Optional end-of-year retreat
Group + Private Sessions
$3,500 pay in full
or $400/month (9 months) · Early Bird
$4,000 pay in full · $444/month after March 3rd
- Everything in the Group Container
- 6 private 75-minute sessions with Heather
- Two sessions per trimester
- Deeper somatic and energy work, personalized integration
- Family Constellations sessions (bonus, Oct–Nov)
Not sure yet? Keep reading — or scroll to the bottom to schedule a free alignment call with Heather.
What becomes possible
These are not new identities to perform or achieve. They are states you will find yourself inhabiting, briefly at first, then more consistently, as safety, trust, and integration build inside the container.
Emerges from The Flooded One & The Achiever
The Alchemist
"I trust timing and transformation."
Effort is no longer constant. Discernment replaces force. You move between expansion and contraction naturally. You create without urgency. Your work becomes coherent. Decisions simplify. You are collapsing timelines and healing your whole lineage through love rather than obligation. Your influence grows without pushing.
Integration
Emerges from The Caretaker
The Empress
"Abundance flows to and through me with ease."
You nurture from fullness rather than depletion. You support others without overholding. You lead through presence. You rest without guilt. Love becomes fierce and steady rather than anxious and depleting. Your boundaries arise from self-love and not just from self-protection.
Resourced power
Emerges from The Heretical Hermit & The Devoted Descendant
The Pleasure Weaver
"I create from a sense of joy and pleasure."
Pleasure lands without overwhelm or guilt. Joy coexists with full awareness of the world's difficulty. Connection feels restorative rather than draining. You create environments others exhale in. You share your gifts and creations with confidence and legitimacy.
Capacity
This is not the right space for you if:
You do not believe in the full humanity of all people and their inherent right to dignity and safety, regardless of race, religion, gender identity, sexual orientation, age, or ability.
You are at the start of your healing journey and are not yet resourced for deep group work.
You are uncomfortable in spaces where menstrual cycles, queerness, or the realities of BIPOC and marginalized experience are held as central rather than peripheral.
You are content with the status quo of toxic patriarchy, capitalism, and colonialism and uninterested in examining how they live inside you.
You are joining primarily due to external pressure rather than your own genuine desire to create, heal, or live differently.
You are not late.
You are not lost.
You are already crossing.
You just don't have to do it alone anymore.
Your people are inside Portalhood.
Questions? Write to Heather directly at [email protected]